r.i.p.

So today my uncle passed away..In a predominantly asian family, I always got the feeling that maybe he felt lonely or like an outcast. He was white by the way, which is so ironic because in most cases Asians would be the minority. Our family found out that he had lung cancer just a couple months ago, so its feels weird that he would pass away so soon..I dont know why but it was like I expected him to live for at least a year longer or something..On the way out from my last visit to him before I left for college (at that point he was hospitalized in his home, strapped to an oxygen tank stuck home watching T.V.) I hesitated wondering whether I should give him a hug, realizing I had never done so before. I thought that maybe it could have been comforting, but I was also unsure thinking that it might have been weird or awkward for him. In the end, I left with a simple goodbye and a wave, telling myself that he would be here atleast til I came back for winter break. It was only three months after all. If only I had known that would have been my last encounter with him. Hesitate, and you just might regret.

Hello. :)

Hi, my name is Su. Im a first year college student with a math midterm tomorrow, yet here I am stalling my time watching random youtube videos. What to do with my life, right? Well, I came across a video of the '2011 tokyo girls collection & girls award' and it just reminded me of what I love about fashion. I've been so caught up in my new college environment lately, tied down with academics and worries about the future that it almost seemed foreign to me that I was even obsessed with such trifle things. True, it is materialistic and it seems fake. But hell, its just so much fun. So much aesthetic beauty I absolutely love it. On a side note, I really need to get back in touch with my artistic side. I havent been drawing for more than half a year (not counting the doodles I scratch down on the side of my notes during lectures). I still dont even know what I want to major in..Im thinking a dual major in logistics with theatre.? I was contemplating landscape architecture but the more that I think about it, the less it seems right for me. Who knows, only time can tell right? The future is so uncertain, blah.

Such a fun and vibrant spectacle. I would love to go these kind of shows. If only I could watch one of John Galliano's runway shows I think I could die peacefully hahah. These kind of outrageously colorful schemes just complete me <3